Searching that kind of happiness I once had, is really hard. I miss having those laugh I used to have, Those that I dont have to fake it, and really meant my joy. The childhood laughters, and those memories I had with my lovely cousins and siblings. It made me think real hard, where have all those joys went to? I am not asking back, I am just reminiscing the past. New friends came my way too. I cant deny that they are awesome. I mix around with a lot of different kind of people and I liked it.

But I missed my old clique of girlfriends when I had in my lower secondary years. I missed Nazura especially. Well, I know she wont be reading this, but why not write it down here. She has been a great lad to me. When I thought about all those times, I realize, I never ever had any arguments with her. All those times were all great days. I missed her granny too. I realize, too, that I never felt sad even when I know I should be feeling sad or sorrowed by some other stuff cause there is a presence of feeling I call, love of friends, when it is just me and her.

Now I sound so bi. And no, I am not bi, humans. Dont panic.

-SuperNyonya.