Syahirah.

SuperNyonya.

Profile

I'm Syahirah but sometimes people acknowledge me as SuperNyonya. I love to crap and I hate people that type with shortforms or LiKe ThIs. In my opinion, people like this deserve a second chance and have a break with kit kat. I hope that by now, you guys should know that I am random.

Free Web Counter

Tag

Links

Layout: vehemency
Icon: reruntherace

Adam Syakirin
Ain
Syirazi
Amalina
Ameer
Anna
Tamimi Indra
Benyamein
Dixon
Ezma
Feet
Firdaus
Hazreel
InaaSC♥
Iyka
Kak Eyfa
Kiffy
Lola
Lynn
Martin
Mokky
Myra
Nashke Ilazas
Norsha
Pamela
Peeqa
Qila
Queen Tisha Ruddy
Shazritzy
Shervans
SmokePartyProduction
Sujimy
Suria
Suuhwella
Zair
Zaquiqui
Zhixin
Zubaidah

Monday, October 19, 2009, 11:54 PM

[Sorry for using old pictures now. =/]

I'm just writing another post now. It have been long since I write so much too. It's time I suppose I should let everything out. Let me just clarify things now. I am confused with my state now. As far as it's written at the post before, I hereby think that I should be a little bit relaxed. I have to understand. I tried to. But never did I once have a boyfriend that couldn't care less about me and what I am doing. I hope by saying this, I doesn't sound harsh, ayy. I tried to tell you in a way that I won't get you hurt. But either way, you will be one day. I don't wish to hurt you anymore. I don't wish to have another argument. I want this argument to end as much as you wanted it too. You kept on saying that you wouldn't wanna lose me, you think I would? No, okay. And you kept on saying, too, that you don't want us to be friends. But if that's the best part of us, why not. I don't see us getting anywhere in terms of relationship, my dear. I am much happier when we're friends. I'm sorry to have said all these.

About friends, I have given up. I'll let fate decides where we are going. If it says that we are breaking apart, then be it. I am not putting anymore initiative to get us back together. Cause when I do, the next thing we'll know is it's breaking again. I have had enough of all these. I'd rather be link to many more connections than to just sit down there, and do nothing about it. I would rather go to anyone who come my way, which is sincere enough. And I have thought of it too, whatever it is, I had my moments with y'all. And I have no regrets. Maybe.

Life has been on it's tougher period now, having to sit for papers, having to fit in with friends that is of many behavior, and ways, having to get myself calm and happy with my relationship, having to just make everything as perfect. I have not get myself enough rest, smile, and what not. Should I be thinking of you guys or myself, first? But I really can't put myself to not be with him. I love him. I miss his clumsiness, I miss his weird weird faces, I miss his reaction when I tickle him. I can't put myself to not be with him neither do I can be with him, and let myself be in negligence and loneliness.

Help me, I'm stuck in the middle. :'/